so on tuesdays and thursdays my schedule works out so that my first class is at 11 and i don’t get out of my third until 4:00. so basically, if i don’t eat before, which i never do, i won’t eat until dinner. and on tuesdays i have a fourth class from 5-8..

its tuesday. i ate 25 cheez its. that’s 150 cal. i had pickles…0 cal. & i had a few chips earlier…250 cal. and i’m drinking herbal tea with splenda.

400 cal total for today. and i didn’t eat dinner last night either. i’m motivated. i just hope my roommate, who happens to be my sister, doesn’t catch on….

Mom: did you eat anything while we were gone(at dinner)?
Me: no.
Mom: your self control is amazing.

You find yourself suddenly in the kitchen with the pantry open just staring at everything. It takes over your whole life. Subconsciously too.

It hurts, the hunger
It’s empty in my stomach
I feel weak and tired
How long?
How much longer?

i hate my body i hate food i hate my thighs i hate my stomach i hate my ass i hate my face i hate skinny people i hate temptations i hate that i let myself get like this i hate that i have to work so hard i hate carbs i hate fat i hate my life

please. i know i can get to where i want to be

i havent weighed myself for three weeks because i’m scared of the disappointment i’ll feel when i see the scale. its never a happy day after weighing